Amy Winehouse VS Amy Goreham

Rehab!  I remember so well the day I was pushed into the center of a group of family members who told me it was time  to go to Rehab.  I was so mad and embarrassed and scared and trapped.  I absolutely refused the help that I was being told I needed.  With dragging feet I embarked on the "road to recovery."

It has been so hard at times.  I lived in denial of its importance so long and as it had done for Amy Winehouse - my refusal nearly cost me my life.

Then in July 2013 I guess I made some other choices.  It really wasn't this "bottomed out" time.  I had indeed hurt myself and indeed was given 24 to 48 hours to live.  I was prepared for that conclusion.  Obviously, the clock is still ticking.

I had no one at that time - absolutely no friends left, no family any longer invested in helping (none had shown up on my deathbed even) and not even a professional worker still interested in my case.  I was almost being considered a lost cause.  Almost!

The doctor at where I stayed put the bottom line up front.  He told me I was unfit to live on my own - I had to go to a facility where I'd be monitored 24/7.  I WILL NEVER BE IN THAT POSITION!  If I must live, it will be on MY TERMS!  But I guess there is the law to consider.

This doctor gave me a last chance.  He gave me resources I could tap into for counseling and time to find the last possible professional worker who wouldn't give up on me.  But that meant I too had to commit to opening my mind to possibilities and to improving.

I vowed I would do this.  I did NOT want to do this, but the alternative was not an option.

It's been one year and 9 months and I've experienced far more success than I have failure.  I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.  I still screw up without a doubt, but the success outweighs the miss steps.  I'm no longer doing this just to stay out of guarded residency - I'm doing it because it feels good.  Rehab maybe isn't ideal and maybe it's almost incomprehensible at the time it's being pushed - but maybe it is a blessing in disguise too.  Rather than Winehouse's position, "And I said, no no no" a person should consider - Maybe maybe maybe.
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